Sona, again. If you are feeling super low and desperate, call 911. This is an emergency every bit as much as if you had fallen and broken a bone!!

Yes, please do!

I had a friend commit suicide and it is awful. This isn't you, it is just as much an injury as a broken bone or a wound bleeding out. You need someone to take care of you right now.

Dear Sona... please take times like this moment by moment, you can get through this darkness. There is light. There are so many of us who get where you are at to some extent. We are here for you.

Oh dear Sona! Just saw this one. I really really hope you get to see your doctor. Please have someone around you all the time. It sucks to be alone in this state .... Not to mention dangerous. I hope you are feeling better. Thinking of you xo

Sons Di we love you and care for you. Please stay in touch

Sona, also please think how you would feel and react if I or another Fabber posted what you've said. You would be telling that person all the things that are being said to you and hoping she took the advice to reach out for help. Treat yourself like you would your family, friends and patients, okay?

I am doing ok. I am sorry I posted this to begin with- so sorry to have you guys worrying. In one way or another this too shall pass.

Hi Sona,

Please don't apologize. Sharing what is going on with people who care about you is what happens when you're part of a strong community or family like YLF.

We look out for each other.

Care-ers are going to care.

You will be on my mind. Updates always appreciated.

No apologizing necessary at all! We all care deeply and are happy for a chance to say that. So many of us have suffered depression and fully undtestand how debilitating this can be. We just want the best for you and that means the care of those around you. It is very important for you to speak up and seek support from family,friends and professional. It is not ok for you to be suffering. You deserve the best care from all around you and need to ask.

Sweetie, I don't need or want apologies! Truly. What I want is to know you or someone else has taken the steps needed to be sure you are safe and getting the support you need.

Sona, I am not happy that you are sad BUT I am happy that you posted. We need to keep an eye out for each other. We are a sisterhood.

XXXXXXXXXX

You don't need to apologise --- people care about you and want you to be happy and healthy. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Sona, I urge you to seek appropriate medical help, both medical or mental. You are not struggling through this alone. Hands are open to you. Grab them!

You are in my thoughts.

Sona, please don't apologize. I hope you find good medical help soon. It's a blessing that the YLF community is as close as this! You've been very helpful and generous to many people here, and it's only natural that YLFers care deeply about you. It's not burdensome at all.

Don't give up, Sona. Stay strong xo

Sona, I am thinking of you. Please get all help you needed because you deserve it. Don't try to soldier it alone.
Sending you good positive thoughts.

Sona-please remember that you are not alone. We all care for you your family and want what is best for you. You cannot do this alone you need people who love and care about you to get through this time.

My daughter suffers from severe depression. Mary K is right please call 911 if you need too. There is no shame in calling. These are people trained to help you.

Do not EVER apologize for reaching out. The only way we can help you is to know that you need us.

Coming out of lurkdom here - I am thinking of you and I hope you are starting to feel a wee bit better. Sounds like an absolutely horrible feeling that you've been experiencing. Not good!

Please don't feel guilty or awkward about the idea that people might be worried about you - it's because people care about you and want you to feel a whole lot better.

Please know that whatever's going on - this is a temporary situation. It will get better, even if it doesn't feel like it right now. These feelings will eventually change and go away - and in the meantime, you need lots of TLC. No guilt, no blaming or anything of the kind. Nothing but TLC - be good to yourself, and be as generous to yourself as you are to others. Kindness, compassion, friendship, support and empathy - for you.

Not sure if it helps at all, but my husband and I have a joke between ourselves, and it's about the reality that we aren't both strong all the time or at the same times. Sometimes I am the one having a freak-out, and sometimes he's the one under severe stress. The 'strong' one (only by virtue of being the non-freaking-out person at the time) picks up the slack and takes extra-good care of the other, and the joke is, "I am freaking out so you can't freak out..."

We both get to be the 'hero' once in awhile, while also knowing it's ok to fall apart and lean on the other when needed.

I guess what I'm suggesting is that it is a good idea to lean on your husband during this bad spell that you're going through. You're not letting him down, you're just having a tough time. I'm betting he'll do anything he can to help make things better for you. You just have to ask, and be 'ok' with the idea that you're not both always going to be strong at the same time. Does that make sense? Let him know how much you need him right now, and tell him exactly what's going on with you. He'll be there.

We're here too - so post whenever you feel like it.

In the meantime, I hope you're feeling a bit better ...and that the storm clouds are lifting a wee bit.

Sona - I think the best thing you did was .... Post here! Trust me talking about it ... Helps. Even if it feels silly now. Depression sucks. Please keep talking to us or to any trusted friend. We are here to listen. And please get help in terms of medication. A mini vacation or even a night out with gfs should help. Hugs xo

I just opened this thread for the first time, Sona. How are you feeling today? When I was doing my clinical psych internship, I had a therapy client who had been struggling with major depression for several years. One of the first things we did was to give him tiny assignments geared toward getting something done that would have a positive effect on him.

For example, he loved music but his stereo (yes, this was before iPods) was packed up because he'd moved in with family. So we worked on getting him to start setting up his music system, ten minutes at a time. Then we worked on having him listen to the music he loved for ten minutes at a time.

Of course in the grand scheme of things none of this was big or important, but these were stepping stones for him, helping him to get across the raging river of his depression. He was so overwhelmed by the big picture that he needed some very small accomplishments to hang onto.

I'm glad you spoke to your psychiatrist and I hope you're also letting DH know how you're feeling. What Una said is so true: women are good at hiding their needs, and men are not great at noticing.

Keep us updated, okay? I'll be thinking of you and wondering how you're doing.

I'm thinking of you, Sona, and hope things are looking up today. You wouldn't think twice about encouraging another forum member - please don't feel as if you shouldn't have posted.

I have been in touch via text with Sona this morning, she gave me permission to let everyone know that she is at work and has taken steps to mend this. She is trying and is doing the right things at this point.

Thank you Isabel. We care and are grateful for the update.

Sona, I'm glad to hear things are looking a little better and that you are working on remedying this. I'm thinking of you today and sending you virtual hugs.

Thanks for the update, Isabel. You are a sweetie.

Sona- just saw this and am sending healing thoughts your way. I am super concerned and hope you have connected with your supports, personal and professional. Your sense of not mattering is the loud voice of depression talking. You need some care to put it in its place.

I have a mental health background and hope that there is someone local that you can put your trust in, who would see the urgency here and be sure you have what you need to turn this around. I'd like to lend you hopefulness for your health returning, knowledge that this will get better with appropriate care and the will to seek help. I am so sorry that you have to go through this. There is light. Please let someone help you get to it. We care.

Just saw Isabel's update and appreciate it. Glad that things are moving forward. Sona, we are with you.

I am so glad to see Isabel's update. Sona, I'll pray for you. So hope you are feeling better.

Hugs, Sona -- so glad that you are feeling a tiny bit better. You are in all our thoughts.

You've really been on my mind, Sona. Please don't apologize, and please do continue to reach out when you are feeling so low and so dark. My sister had a very dark period right before Christmas and she did not reach out ... now, she has hit another low, but she did reach out, and I am heading to visit her this weekend. Although this is a very tough time, I am so, so grateful she took the step to reach out.

Depression runs in my family so I am familiar at least with how it manifests itself among us. When it hits really hard, it can be so difficult to let people know. I'm so glad that you did, and that you have returned to this thread just to check in. We all care so much and just want to "hear" your voice occasionally.

I hope today feels a little better than yesterday, and that tomorrow will be better than today.

Hi Sona,

I was just thinking of you. Hope you are feeling a little better with each day.