I had a meltdown today which was saved by a trip to a high-end lingerie shop. I returned from a business trip yesterday feeling really lousy: physically , mentally, and disheartened by my body and it's ever-changing shape. For starters I have a cold, which is draining me of energy, and I am fighting with a recent haircut that I don't like and can't figure out how to style. Nothing I wore /am wearing feels good, and I (to be perfectly blunt) hate the way I look right now. I know that whining and complaining about one's appearance is a waste of energy, and I hate listening to it as much as I hate doing it myself. But......this is a clothing/fashion forum so if you can't moan a bit here , where can you?

Anyways, I knew I needed some new bras. I've been putting it off for a couple of reasons: cost (where I want to spend my cash right now) and time it takes to get fitted and trussed up properly. It's right up there with trying on swimsuits and jeans in my books. Anyways - back to the beginning : I hit the wall today, and lost it with myself and how dumpy I am looking. I knew I had to do something to get my body back under control and a bra was the first place to start. The $40 department store ones just don't cut it anymore.

I have a smallish frame, am not terribly tall, have a curvyish body, and largish breasts, and oh yes, to add insult to injury, have a short torso. Add this to aging , a current trip through perimenopause (oh when will this be over???) and my body is unrecognizable to me these days. Lumpy, frumpy, dumpy. So - I assessed my current outfit (shorts, tshirt, Birks) , figured it was just going to have to do , slapped on some lipstick, grabbed my phone/wallet/car keys and headed out the door.

I was the only one in the store (as I figured I would be at 2 in the afternoon on a weekday), I told the store owner my sad tale- and in less than a half hour marched out of there wearing the best bra ever. It is likely the most expensive bra ever, but I seriously didn't care. I am lifted up, tightened up, and feel a hundred times better about one area of my body anyways. My tshirt hangs better, my breasts don't look so big and heavy (tell me who really likes big breasts anyways, besides men???), and I am standing a little taller.

I've started a new exercise regime (barre and hot yoga) as my old one (weights and walking ) seems to have stopped being effective . Not sure what I'm going to do with this hair, but that's another story:)