I feel your pain, Lisa. I'm deep into perimenopause myself. For the last few months my cycles are totally off script and I can feel various symptoms ramping up. I'm so ready for this to be over. Honestly, I've been feeling a bit insane lately. One day I'm feeling ok, the next I'm loathing everything. (FYI...I'll be 52 in September).
The hair....yep, me too. I decided a few months ago that I'd try something new. Well, I've spent the last 12 weeks growing it out and just got a trim the other day. I can finally look in the mirror again without feeling like I want to cry. Thank God it grows back!
Your new exercise program sounds excellent and I sincerely believe that it will help you to feel better about yourself. The same thing happened to me. I'd always done lots of stationary bike and dabbled in this and that. And then it stopped working and the belly fat started building up. I joined Goodlife 4 years ago and it's been sooo good. I'm kicking myself for not starting sooner. I've gotten rid of the majority of the fat and and I continue to get stronger and tighter and feel healthier. I keep myself on a strict schedule....no excuses, just do it. Once you're on a schedule it becomes a habit....and once that happens it just feels easy and part of the day. I do some classes because they really force me to challenge myself and I do lots of weights and some cardio. It's been a huge boost for me because I've discovered that if I'm willing to be disciplined and make exercise and taking care of my body a priority I do actually have some measure of control over how it looks. And that's a good feeling! Previously my feeling was, this is just what happens as you get older so accept it, and I no longer feel that way. For a control freak such as myself, knowing I have some power over this is a good thing.
I also really boosted my veggie and fruit intake last fall and that has changed my body for the better as well. I make a green smoothie most days for lunch.....hardcore smoothies.....and well, the human body really likes plant based foods. I noticed a difference after just a few days....it removes bloat and the digestive system works so much better. And no, I'm not a fanatic when it comes to food.....coffee and wine are serious vices. I'm just trying to make good choices more often than not. And again, it becomes a habit.
For what it's worth, when I look at your pics I think you look great. I don't see lumpy and dumpy. We women are way too hard on ourselves.
Sorry for the long ramble.........