This thread is a perfect example of what's special about YLF - thanks TG for starting it, and everyone for providing such honest, transparent comments.
I took a big step back from focusing on work this year. As mainelady said, I don't need to play all the instruments and lead the band. It's led to some challenging conversations, and also a style transition (if I'm only in the office 2-3 days a week, why do I have 17 blazers?), but both my physical and mental health are improved.
For this year, I want to give up worrying about this work change. It's one thing to start it, it's another to live with it. And I haven't changed jobs since I lost my Dad, who was a major influence on me - so there's a lot of emotional work to do.
On the a lighter note, there are a couple style/appearance things I want to let go:
- Criticizing myself in pictures. I've long hated having my picture taken. But a collage I did for our anniversary reminded me how important those mementos are. They're real, and they matter, even if in the moment all I can see is the double chin or the thicker midline.
- Boredom shopping. I need to stop with aimless online point and click. I've gotten much better at being selective when things make it to the house, but in many cases, they shouldn't have been ordered at all.
- Business formal. As part of this style transition, my truly formal clothes are feeling too much like a costume. It's time to lighten up, and find other ways to be situation-appropriate without defaulting to a suit.