We have a viability ultrasound today. So, we will know if we have a heartbeat and if things are progressing, or if I have to go in for a D&C after Christmas.

I admit to being so nervous I have had trouble sleeping. Part of me wants to know, and part of me dreads knowing.

And, we have had positive viability at 9 weeks (where we are now) only to lose it at 12 weeks. So even a good result today is no guarantee.

Depending on today's results, I need to find a way to beat the intense fatigue I am feeling. I have actualy fallen asleep sitting up! That is not helping the exercise goal or the fitting back into my regular pants goal.

One thing at a time. One thing at a time.

UPDATE: there is no heartbeat. Looks like everything stopped at 7 week, but I didn't miscarry. So on Monday and Tuesday they are going to try to force a miscarry. If that doesn't work, I go in for a D&C the day after Christmas. Probably won't be on for a bit.