Oh, Thistle. I so know what you are going through - the nerves, the fatigue, , the never-ending blood work and procedures, the ultrasounds, the angst, and no more heartbeat. Over and over again. And the D&C's are just as bad. Give yourself all the time you need. Rest up, restore, allow DH, DD and the kitties to spoil you. It does get better. I promise. It takes time though - and you have a beautiful daughter. A true blessing. Thinking of you and lots of love. xo