Oh Rae! (just woke up and read the updates)
Seeing as I am speechless and tearful with the shock and the relief (on your behalf, that you're relatively o) all the way over here, I can't start to imagine how you might be feeling.
Like others, I wish there was something I could do of concrete use to you.
So glad you have your hubby to hang on to and watch out for you just now. You take care of yourself, get that counselling when you're ready for it (AG's right that sharing with others who *were* there is as important as independent work), and I'd even suggest Mr Rae find someone to talk to about it as well. I can hear survivor's guilt already in your last update, and in a way, he might feel that too (only differently).
Really don't understand how the world got to be such a terrifying place outside of a war zone. It was less scary sitting in the air-raid blackouts during the Iran-Iraq war, FFS! And this hits much, much, much... waaaaaay too close to home!
You take care of yourself and concentrate on feeling whole and loved and safe. The world can wait till you're ready to take it on with UWP boots on. We'll be rooting for you when you're ready.
Wishing you a good night's rest, as soon as may be, and a nurturing evening with friends and hubs and kitty before that. Many hugs.
