Wow, thanks everyone. You have been so encouraging and I'm sorry for sharing my bad moment with you. Your kind words have been changing my reaction to the photo and it now doesn't seem nearly as depressing as it did when I posted it.
Sharan, Gigi, Staysfit, RobinF, CindySmith, Approprio, Janet, Kkards, Aquarmarine, Summer. Isobel thankyou,
Smittie - really? - I thought you looked way slimmer than me!
Joyce B you are right
Jenni NZ -thanks. Hopefully my exercise does make an impact, though it is probably mostly heredity, and possibly being celiac (only diagnosed 3 years ago) and not liking most chips or drinking much alcohol My diet could be better in other ways though. I guess when I go through menopause I'll see what happens in the bust area - but both mum and aunty stayed pretty flat (and relatively slim). Even with breastfeeding I didn't get very big. And now I'm pretty much flat down to the nipples (not so evident thanks to bras in most of my WIWs!)
I didn't really want to say that I was big - it was clumsily expressed. I think I was influenced by all the body type posts that have been around on the forum recently. - I just felt that a bigger bust would balance out the other parts of me. Fit wise it might help too - as I have the issue of things fitting either the shoulder/arms or the bust, but no both at once!
Sal - for sure it is a mental health boost
KM - thanks - and yes pregnancy does change things. I have some back fat that has never budged from my first one, Not the shoe size thing though!
Bijou "It is OK to not be perfect and the more that we accept ourselves, it makes it easier for others to do the same." Wise words and also made me think that I hope the responses here are making it easier for others, and mitigating any difficulties I may have created for any readers (for which I'm sorry)
Andrea H Thanks for sharing your scrubs diaper moment with me
Thanks for such a lovely detailed response Krish - and I'd want to be friends with you too (and I'm in awe of that workout you showed us a while ago)
Tisa - You are right posture does make a difference. I need to work on mine. I'm afraid this pic was from before the run though - I was all red and sweaty afterwards!
Lisap I appreciate your empathy. And yes I'm in a privileged position being able to run - and I've already had time off from it with injury etc to make me appreciate that. And yesterday I fell off my bike and have some quite big bruises on my leg, plus I'm having surgery on my foot next week, so I might not be able to do it again for awhile
Vix you always have such great practical advice. I like your ideas about
"So: darker colors worn top + bottom (imagine your purple top with navy or black shorts), few horizontal breaks (swap out your black socks for lighter-colored ones), performance compression wear for a little function + form help. So: darker colors worn top + bottom (imagine your purple top with navy or black shorts), few horizontal breaks (swap out your black socks for lighter-colored ones), performance compression wear for a little function + form help."
What do you advise about performance compression wear?
I did run most of the 5km, thought I walked a bit. Still getting over a cold.
I do have a running skort and it does look better, but I couldn't find it in my rush! I need to buy a shorter more fitted top to wear with it too, and not just for figure flattery reasons - but because I think loose tops are getting in my way when I exercise (not when running, but other things)
Thanks so much everyone!