Over the last 36 hours things have come to a head and I am shortly headed towards an endometrial ablation ( deep scraping of uterus) versus a hysterectomy.
This rules out ever having another child biologically ( with me carrying said child) which I am comfortable with but my husband and daughter find it harder than me in some ways to accpet the finality of that.
My mother is that one true rock who focuses on my wellbeing and does not let anything else be a concern. I am finally learning too that it is me and my life and wellbeing that are paramount.
Maybe surrogacy some day or not, I want to simply be healthy and well. Able to work, be a mom and wife and not a pale imitation of a woman struggling to do anything well.
I am really hoping the ablation works ( back to work in 4-5 days) versus the much more involved hysterectomy.
Ironic that my post about finally feeling fab and not fat friday morning was written just a few hours before the torrential 'big bleed'.
Anyway, I am asking for prayers if you pray, wishes if you are so inclined and any thoughts you can spare my way.
Right now I am trying to make it without going to the ER for a blood transfusion overnight. its so ironic: my big worry is that I will have to take a few days off work and that my patients who need to reschedule may be upset.
But I guess it is better that I can be healthy and well to be around long enough to help them as well as help myself and my family.
I have come to love YLF as an extended family and appreciate your thoughts and well wishes which I know shall be with me.

Merci.

ETA: endometrial ablation scheduled for 6/26. bleeding somewhat better. pain still bad but hoping to make it to the 26th. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all your words of support.