Chewy-- sorry to hear about your possible diagnosis. My docs at one point thought I had lupus. However, it turned out that I have a rare neurological condition that was causing the joint pain and also heart problems I didn't even know that I had! I thought the fainting, racing heart, and chest pain were related to the er-visit level joint pain and something akin to an anxiety attack. Some people eventually recover from my condition, or cycle with it, so here is to hoping. Lupus is so hard to diagnose (in my opinion) unless you have the characteristic mylar rash (although this isn't a sure thing) and elevated ANA levels.
Today was a bad day for me in general. It was pouring and for some reason on campus 3x the normal amount of people suddenly use handicapped parking when the weather turns. There were multiple people without permits. I had to park 5 or 6 buildings away from where I was going and hike up a hill with stage 3 heart failure. Needless to say, I ended up with a wet butt from having to stop and sit to keep from fainting. I also discovered that my raincoat leaks and I didn't have an umbrella because I am not driving my car! I spent most of the day cold and wet. On Friday I have to go to the cardiologists office for a stress test.
Right now I am simply running out of time. Many of the pieces I have been trying to replace have finally bit the dust or are on the precipice this week. I need some new bras, undies, a raincoat, new sneakers, and new jeans NOW. I basically have been wearing the same 10 tops with a couple pair of jeans and jackets/sweatshirts for a year straight and they are ready to bite the dust. That isn't even counting the warm clothes that I won't make it two weeks into october without.
Right now my hair is wavering back and forth between looking really limp and being flyaway. I have ultra fine hair and it cannot behave at the length it is now. The haircut is really not doing anything for my face (blunt, just beyond the shoulders), but if I go much shorter I won't be able to tie it up to swim. I also think my eyebrows need to be reshaped--- I don't know how I managed this, but now they are round. I just look the way I feel-- blah!
