Update:
Well On top of that we had to deal with mental health issues. I'm sorry
we have been gone so long. So much going on. Yesterday May 10th My
sister finally convinced her to go to the hospital to seek help for her
manic depression and while there get the daily Dialysis that is so
needed. My birthday was a pretty dismal one on Wednesday May 9th but my
sister My shero was able to give us all some much needed time to put
things into place that would help our aunt. We still have a ways to go
but we can breath a little easier. Thank you all so very much for
giving me room to vent.

So a relative whom I am very close to is reaching here end of life or a point of sickness in her life. I am usually a very positive person and we live life in the midst of being in what feels like limbo. My sister and I are now in charge of her care as she has no other children. She has reached the point that she has end stage renal failure and does not want to take dialysis any longer. This has been going on for 2 months. Her medical team has advised us that she can choose to do what she wants to do. I am caught in this place where if she wants to die How do we help her do that with dignity but I'm also of the mindset how long does this take? It is a very soul tiring dialy journey. I'm venting because we had an episode this morning as has often been the case lately ambulance, fire fighters, Drs, emergency room visits. Ya'll pray for us or send us good thoughts because she will not get better. It does not work like that.