Can't sugar coat...it's been an ordeal. Diana was right, too much at once. On the other hand, I don't want to do it again so it's possibly a good thing I did all at once. Look at me, still second guessing my decision long after it's over. It's a gift.

I've been mostly smoothies and mashed food for 18 days. I haven't lost any weight thanks to a new obsession with non-dairy ice cream. (So Delicious brand cashew milk Snickerdoodle...OMG!). I also had a good protein powder for all the smoothies. So I'm not all wimpy, but I really want some crunchy things now!

One thing I know...no one is cutting open the roof of my mouth ever again. If I need any more they will all be donor or they won't be done. It is basically healed, but it still feels bizarre. The whole left side is raised up and more squishy feeling. Not super painful, just freaky and sensitive. Diana and Suz...does it get back to normal? I hate this feeling.

So far I'm having Diana's bumpy results instead of Suz's smooth, can't tell any different results. And my jaw on both sides feel weirdly tight, like a big smile is uncomfortable. I'm hoping that will improve over time too. Stitches come out tomorrow so maybe that will help.

Sorry I'm sounding so negative. I know some of you were saying you needed them too. I hope I'm just at the not quite healed and irritated about it phase, and that I can tell you more positive things in about a month.