I have been feeling down lately, so maybe that is the reason why I am not finding joy in getting dressed anymore. Or maybe it is that I am craving a change. I used to be all about change. I used to change my hair style and color few times per year. I had pixie, I had long, I had layers, I had straight, I had perm. Red, blond, black, brunette, highlights and lowlights. My style was also all over the place and I never stuck to the same color pallet. And not just style, I was also quick to change jobs and move countries. But now it is the longest that I lived in the same city, had a same job and the same hair style. And I am getting antsy. Changing job is out of the question but maybe some other changes would satisfy those cravings. I was also thinking how different people see me differently and that it seems to be all about first impressions and at what stage they firs met me. For example, my husband and I met when I had a very casual job and was in a rock chick phase. Whenever he sees me now in my business outfits he would jokingly say that I have sold my soul, that this is not me, and he is happiest when I wear jeans and most casual outfits. On the other hand, a good friend of mine that I met when I was in business bombshell phase is still pointing to me a sheath dresses saying that they are so me and that I should get them. I don’t have a heart to tell her that I haven’t worn a dress like that for almost a decade. And it is not that she doesn’t see me - we work in the same building and have a standing lunch date. And you, dear people of YLF also probably have a impression of what is and is not my style too
I was trying to analyze what is bothering me the most. I think it is repetition of the same formula. I don’t do make up lately, and I wear the same bag and same Ecco sneakers. And my hair is also the same every day. I don’t wear jewelry and don’t use any other accessories. So it is only 3 pieces dressing - I have to choose just a pants, a crew neck sweater and a blazer every day. And it doesn’t require a lot of effort or creativity because most of those things mix and matches and I can make a lot of different combinations. But it still feels the bloody same. And my casual dressing is even more simple - jeans and a sweater. There are also factors that are limiting possible changes, like that I can’t color my hair because of allergies, that I have to wear some kind of business outfit to work and that I can’t wear lot of shoes due to my back injury.

Sorry for unwinding all of this on you, and for being so long and naval gazing. Do you have any words of wisdom for me? Any feedback much appreciated.