I apologize for the length of this rant.

Nothing much has changed since the last time I posted on this front. I'm still job searching constantly. I have applied to at least 60-70ish positions and for the past couple months, I've averaged about 3 phone or in person interviews per week; some weeks I have had as many as 6. I've lost track of how many I've had, honestly.

I'm doing this while being employed full time, while work is constantly getting busier, while commuting at least 90 minutes per day (typically longer.) Most of my lunch breaks are skipped either because I keep getting dragged from one request to another at work, or because I have a phone interview scheduled. I can keep up the energy long enough to power through work and interviewing and staying awake to drive home, but that's as long as I can make it. I'm exhausted by the time I reach home and often crash on the couch as soon as I've had a meal. The idea of finding time to exercise is just a joke at this point.

To date, I have not made it past a 1st round in person interview. I thought I had a pretty good sense of how an interview was going, but either my perceptions are way off or (what I think is more likely) I am just not a strong enough candidate with my experience level to make the cut to the next level. My resume is doing its job in the sense that I've had a lot of employers contacting me, I communicate and engage well, I have strong examples of what I have done, I am positive, I am able to summon energy, and I ask a lot of thoughtful questions about the role/business/industry. I've been on both sides of the table frequently in the past as a candidate and as a recruiter, so I'm generally comfortable with the process. I can't think of anything that I could have done better when I replay interviews in my head.

Last time I wrote, I had not really had an interview where I was confident that I was a good fit, so I wasn't expecting an offer. This time I have had a couple, and yet... even after what I thought was a really strong interview, where the hiring manager and recruiter were very excited about my background, and where I really left the interview thinking based on how things were going that I was likely to get an offer... that was the last I heard from them. Not even a rejection email or a follow-up to my thank you; nothing. I've worked at companies that are busy or that take a long time to make a decision, but sheesh, we at least try to follow up with the people we have met with face to face.

I still have other interviews ahead that I'm really interested in, but I'm kind of at the end of my rope. I think I might throw in the towel if nothing transpires within the next few weeks. My boss has long trip in about a month, and then I have a trip immediately afterwards... it seems like there's not much point to applying with that ahead, to be honest.
That would mean re-starting the process as early as August and staying with my current employer at least until then, and who knows if my chances would be any better or not.

In the meantime, the stress level at my current job is almost as bad as it's ever been. Lots of layoffs and people jumping ship for other jobs. Reductions in headcount on my team means that I have more responsibility and am expected to accomplish it in the same amount of hours per week as I was working before, and I have no one who I can delegate to or ask for help. The same cultural and systematic problems that started occurring a year and a half ago have continued uninterrupted, and I have approached every resource I can think of for help/requests to change these issues without any alteration or estimated date for when the problems will be fixed.
I don't have a back-up if I need to be out of the office. For that reason, I can't be out even when I'm genuinely ill, and on top of that, my employer is big on issuing formal disciplinary action for "unexpected absences" when sick days are taken without advanced notice. For the past year and a half, I've given up on trying to eat breakfast because I'm so anxious before work that food nauseates me, and without being able to afford a sick day and having low energy, I don't want to deal with an upset digestive system on top of an already busy schedule.

The only bright spot is that my anti-depression regimen *is* working, so my mental health is so far in a much better place than it was last time I was so stressed at work. However, I'm scared that it is only a matter of time before things go downhill again; my doctor has cautioned me over the years that I can't rely on medication to make me less unhappy about a toxic work environment.
I have no idea how I'm going to stick it out for several more months without breaking down, but given that I'm already massively struggling in my job search, I feel like it would hurt my chances even worse if I were to quit without another job in sight. My former and current colleagues who know that I'm searching are really surprised that I've not been able to attract any offers and I've applied every suggestion that they have given me.

On top of that, a loved one has suggested that my weight could be a deterrent too; that's one more thing that I am failing at.

I do not know what to do.