Sona, thank you for continuing to check in and for sharing those thoughts with us. I think journaling can be very helpful -- especially first thing in the morning, when everything about the impending day can feel overwhelming. I wish you all the best in getting the support you need from your husband too. You are loved.

We will continue to be here for you. Big hugs!

Sona, you know this, I know -- but please try to remember that the feelings of unworthiness are part of depression itself. They are not a reflection of any kind of reality. They are a sign of the depression, not a sign of truth.

You are so worth it. You are valued. You are loved.

We stand with you and care so much about you Sona.

Sona ... Please do talk to us. You are doing a great thing by writing down your thoughts. The more you do this, the better you will feel. And yes... One hour at a time you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hi Sona!

Thursday mar 20 check in: bad day. had a near seizure. hubby is freaked out ( poor guy). another med change. I am feeling: disassociated?.

thank you for your ongoing support.

Sona, I think about you often. My hope is that you can find the proper medication not to dull the feelings, but to change the chemical imbalance that is causing you so much pain. There are so many people who love you so much.

Again, thanks for checking in whatever the news is. You matter and you must not think you are a burden no matter how much others have to do for you right now - you do so much for others, it is all karma and will circle around. Hugs and strength - will look for you again here tomorrow.

Thanks so much for checking in Sona! Thinking of you a lot and sending tons of hugs!

Thanks for the update Sona. I know it's so hard but please keep talking, keep writing, keep reaching out.

I'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts every day, Sona.

Thanks for the check in Sona. Please feel all of our love wrapping you like a warm blanket.

Oh well that was a bugger - not to put too fine a point on it.

It is really nice to get your check-ins everyday. In computers, that's what we call a "ping." (Probably everybody knows that already, don't you?)

Hi Sona,
Thanks for checking in. I'm sorry you had a bad day and that figuring out meds is sometimes more of an art than a science. Sending you positive thoughts.

Friday mar 21 ping: feeing about the same.

forcing myself to get out of the house: go fill gas and deposit a check. I actually dressed up today! I EVEN posted a wiw.

I am worried about the weekend crash. Last two weekends have been brutal. But I am trying to find examples of self love etc and trying to remember I am loved.

I am feeling guilty about my patients who might have had questions for me or labs I needed to get back about but these were being answered by my partners who do not know them very well. I know deep inside that I have to take care of my self first but it is hard. Bebe was asking me yesterday what exactly was wrong with me? What do I say? no words.

Guilt about bebe, hubby, my mom, my siblings, my patients, my YLF buddies....

...never ending guilt.

but one minute at a time.

You are a good person - feel no guilt there are many people who have done far less for others than you and they have not had to deal with the monster that a mind can sometimes become . Be kind to yourself and keep talking to your family & friends.

(I'm sorry I missed this thread 3 days ago. I didn't see it for some ridiculous reason).

Sona, we are thinking of you, and relieved that you have a strong support structure. One hour at a time. Your YLF buddies will be here no matter what, so fill your heart and head with thoughts of self-love. We send our love in busloads each day. xo

Sona .... Thinking of you xo

Sona - hope you're doing ok. When you're up to it, can you check in and let us know how things are going? Thinking about you

Hugs, Sona. Thinking of you.

Sona, over the weekend hubs and I were passing through that same area of the hotel (I think it's the Marriot) where we all had a great time chatting and eating snacks on your husband's expense account (tell him thanks, again

Really, you are tightly interwoven into many of my local associations here. I hope you and your sweet daughter come back and visit again soon.

Just stopped by to say am thinking of you Sona. Remembered you with gratitude when Angie posted about birkies in fashion. Thought of you lots last week especially as I made the decision to acknowledge my own depressive spiral. Keep tapping the keys or penning the words... no matter what they are even a grocery list ... just set an egg timer and write... remind yourself you exist and your thoughts are valid and they matter... it makes a world of difference when one step further is all you can go

Sona, the So Cal girls are SUPER SUPER SUPER excited to see you live and in person tomorrow!! Can. not. wait.

OMG I forgot about that! Wonderful to hear there's a meetup!

Have fun girls ...

Thinking of you sona. Xo
I never check off topic, don't know why but you are in my thoughts and prayers.