First, Day Vies, your outfit and hair are absolutely, positively stunning. The dress, the colors, the necklace and boots...they are just perfection on you. Seriously. You know what suits you and you completely own it. I so wish I was there in my fashion journey...I still feel clothes wear me, instead of the other way around!
Second, I'm so impressed with your revelation. Thanks for sharing. It's clear to me that it was most definitely the so-called "friends" who missed out, not you. I had a similar experience several years ago. I've always been the overly loyal, available, "if-nothing-better-comes-along" option, or the one who everyone could rely on in an emergency or in a panic, a crutch until someone better happened by, but never a priority. Not that I'd ever refuse to help someone who really needed me, of course, or turn anyone away, but I needed and wanted to have as true, close friends others who are just plain real. Just authentic. And who let me be the same. I learned while I can still try to treat everyone, close or not, with love and kindness, that it's okay to limit those I allow into my "circle of influence" in order to protect myself emotionally. That lesson has been such a blessing. Hoping your revelation brings you the same peace!