This is beautiful, and expressive, and accurate, and inspirational!
I'm so curious to see if it helps to move you forward. Watching your style skyrocket this year, I can scarcely believe that you have recently felt off your game. From my perspective you have never looked better or truer to yourself. But I suspect this means you're ready for a new leg of the journey and I, for one, can't wait to see where it takes you!
Not only do you have a great voice (in song and in writing) but you also have an uncanny ability to find precisely the right pieces -- even at bargain prices and places (like Target and Kohl's). Your eye goes immediately to the items that will allow you to produce the look you are after. And you've done a brilliant job of that in the past year, mixing these with older or higher quality new items, and making outfits that absolutely shine (even if you don't want them to outshine or over shine.)
I think part of your recent problem is that you are ready for some of the new runway ideas -- but they haven't filtered down into retail yet, especially in middle America. You're ahead of the curve.
That's what you get for hanging around here, I guess.
And we all get to benefit from your beauty, brains, and eloquence!