How did you learn to apply makeup?

More to the point, how can I, an almost 50 year old lady, learn to apply makeup?

I feel like when I wear makeup it ends up a mess, kind of of a clown show (an effect that is only enhanced as I age), imprecise, smeary, etc. I feel like I am missing some secret about how this works?

I am not looking for help choose products, I am looking for help getting the product onto my face. I feel like a lot of makeup tutorials out there are very product focused rather than technique focused and it's like you kinda see her dabbing something onto one eyelid and then *poof* the other eyelid is magically done too! I am like slow down and repeat please!

Of course I know I don't have to wear makeup at all and a lot of times I don't but I would like to wear it sometimes and feel more confident when I do.

I guess lots of people learn this stuff by playing around when they are teens but that ship has obviously sailed for me! I don't have a ton of time in my schedule to create lewks and I think after many decades of not feeling confident about this it's tough for me to jump into approaching it as play, ya know?

So, anyone have any resources or strategies to suggest?