Hello! I have a little vice called 'writing'. I usually write in Spanish, but from time to time I try to do it in English. It's not my mom-tongue, so I'm not very good at that, but I still try. Some months ago -or maybe a lot of months ago- I wrote this small text on self-esteem. It's nothing original, but still, I find it sort of cute. Since I cannot share it on my blog -because I mainly have Spanish readers-, I thought maybe I could share it with you guys. It's gotta do something with style, that's for sure, apart from inner qualities. Excuse me please of any error I may have committed

So you basically spent a great part of your life waiting for yourself to come. Your real self, you know, the cool one, the one that will leave everybody impressed and like ‘whoa’ and everybody will say ‘see that person, she used to be like me, but now she’s amazing and so charming and I want to be like her’ and you will feel so proud of your real self, who now is you yourself, you know, the only self people will know of you. So you keep waiting, because you feel that you are around the corner, you must be around the corner, because it’s been so long already and, I mean, it will happen, right? You’re sure it will happen, it must happen, it’s happened before. And you get this ugly-duckling complex and you think things will change like in the fairytale, and you will become The Great Swan, and painters from all over the world will come to see you and musicians from everywhere will visit you and you’ll be their muse. And you keep dreaming and waiting but it’s still not happening, so you start to get nervous about the whole thing, but nervous in a bad way, you know, because you start to realize it’s not happening. It’s just not happening. And then, one day, you get tired and you stop waiting for your real-self to come and start thinking, that, you know, MAYBE this is all you’ve got to be. YOU. You don’t quite like it at the beginning, because 'you' is boring, I mean, you’ve known yourself forever now and you know there’s not much to know about you. You are like one of those little towns around Paris, what’s there to see, nothing, really, so you want to be Paris, but that’s not happening, because there is someone who is already Paris and it is impossible that there are two Parises in the world. So you are doomed, now, and you will have to be something like Montargis or Provins for the rest of your life. An average little town surrounded by average little towns with nothing in particular and a lot in general. Until one day, you introduce your name on Google, ‘Montargis’, and you realize you even have a website and some little interesting things to see and know. So maybe you don’t have an Eiffel-tower within you but, to begin with, not everybody likes Eiffel-towers. Some people find them too tall, or too crowded, or too metallic. So you start thinking that, hey, maybe you are somewhat interesting, after all. You are one of those little special villages in France that most people don’t get to know, okay, but the ones who do, oh my, they love it. They think you are charming, or sophisticated, maybe you offer amazing food or have a really nice view of the mountains. Maybe it’s because you are all green and flowery, or cold and cozy. And then you look for yourself in the map, and you find yourself and you realize you are surrounded by other little towns just as special as you. Right at that moment, you know you are not around the corner anymore. You are within yourself, now. You found yourself, but now for real. And you know that you are a unique village surrounded by other unique villages and that all of you together are part of an area in France. You know where you stand now, and now is the time to change things. Now that you know where you are, and what you are, and who you are, you can start changing your location, what you offer and your essence. Now is the time to add the big-wheel to the central square of your heart, now is the time to change the menu of your restaurant, and the walls of your house. Now you can feel secure within yourself, and know what you need to change and what is already comfortable for you. Now is the time to become The Great Swan. You can be Paris, if you want to. You just need to decide if you are ready for the Eiffel-tower to come.