For a while now I've been cruising the forums admiring everybody's WIWs while not posting anything of my own. The change to the forums that only allows logged-in active members to view images has been the kick in the butt I need to jump back in.
The short story is that I felt like my WIWs were dull and not worth sharing.
The medium-length story is that my DH and I have been trying to have a baby, so all year I have been trying not to buy too many clothes because I was so sure that the next month would be the one.
The long story is that after months of disappointment, my optimism on that front is fading. It's been nearly a year of trying, not including the miscarriage I had at 10 weeks last fall. I often feel sad, scared, and alone. I have tried cruising the "Trying To Conceive" boards for support but felt smothered by sparkly animated gifs and angel babies and cutesy acronyms. Someone I know has either had a baby or announced a pregnancy nearly every month I have not been pregnant since my miscarriage.
On the more positive end of things, I've taken up yoga and running and feel pretty good about the way my body looks. At this point I am resigned to requiring medical assistance to procreate, which is a load off my shoulders. I think I feel good, too, about dressing the body I have in style.
The YLF community, with it's witty, charming, and stylish citizens, has clearly ruined me for the rest of the internet. I look forward to spending more time with you all.
