I could definitely stand to lose a few more pounds, but I don't feel "fat" anymore. I might look "fat" in some people's eyes, but ...I've pretty much decided that even with those few extra pounds, I can still look good and feel good - YLF has a *lot* to do with that. I may or may not lose those pounds, but I'm no longer going to wait around, or put myself on hold because of a number on the scale, or a size on a clothing tag.
In a weird way, I think that in a lot of cases, "fat" is a state of mind, just like they say "age" is a state of mind. Sure, I'm not the slimmest (still considered overweight on medical charts by six pounds)...but how much does this matter? Does it matter enough to make me feel bad all the time? It used to - but no longer. If anything, reading around this forum has taught me that everyone has their issues when it comes to clothes, sizes, fit and so on. It has helped me so much to realize that *everyone* has their own little battles - maybe someone can't get their size when things go on sale, they can't find boots that are small enough in the calf or what have you. Pants are too long or too short. A small bust or a large bust. Wide feet or overly narrow feet. Athletic calves or skinny calves. Too tall or not tall enough.
While it would be easy to believe that if I lost another twenty pounds everything would magically be better, I know this isn't really true. It would turn out that I couldn't find pants long enough, and still had to have the waist taken in. That maybe I had to buy petites on top and regular on bottom. Honestly? I don't think one's weight or so-called "fat-ness" or slim-ness will make things any easier - it's just that you might have a whole new set of conundrums to deal with. If anything - there will always be some sort of conundrum, it's just that with a changing shape or size - the specific conundrums might change a wee bit. I honestly don't believe there's any ideal shape or size.
