I am feeling rather down at the moment

Let me explain. We live in a house that is rented to us by private arrangement by relatives who are extremely kind about it, charging us less rent than they could get on the market and not subjecting us to the rental inspections that put many friends cleaning to the wee hours every three months. Many other kindnesses too.

But they have just told us that the house needs to be kept cleaner and really this is a reasonable request because housework is not my strong suit and the house reflects that.

My DH wants us to get a cleaner and we have actually been given some money for this purpose from another relative. However I was using it to send 2 kids (Now only 1) to day care for one day a week with the plan that I would use some of that time to clean myself. (Much cheaper) That worked for awhile but last term I actually went to a course most weeks and didn't really do that. Since the course is over I told DH I wanted to try again and he has given me 2 weeks to trial it.

I am curiously resistant to having someone else do it although I have had people in the past when working, heavily pregnant and when dd#3 was a newborn. They were all friends who had a short term money need and were happy to do it for a little while. (cleaning is probably the most lucrative non professional work available where I live)

I feel like I should be able to handle this myself. My time management is not great (including being too much on the internet!) i feel really ashamed.

Any thoughts? Do any of you SAHM's have someone to help you?