Sorry this will be long.

It is funny now I want to tell you guys all my problems! Everyone is so supportive here and right now I am at work at just feel like crying. I haven't even been able to comment on posts today because I am so preoccupied.

I was at a pub crawl this weekend with my fiancee and our best couple friends, and we met up with my cousin and another friend. Well this friend who I went to college with, I have kind of pulled away from over the last year because she is just so much drama and hasn't really left the college days behind, basically she likes to gossip and talk badly about people, something I have been working really hard not to do. After telling me she is sad we aren't as close, and then telling me that she was really hurt I didn't ask her to be a bridesmaid, I then said that I'm sorry she was hurt, but that asking her to be part of my day as a greeter was special too. So things were going ok until I said that the reason I had been a little distant was because it seemed like no matter what I did, it wasn't good enough for her and she looked at everything negatively. Then she went into attack mode and to sum it up told me that I am completely self centered, fake, act like I am a "Stepford" wife, think my life is perfect, and that she knows my relationship is unhappy and because I don't complain about it am secretive. The worst thing was that she said that I don't have any good friends because my Cousin (also maid of honor) and my other good friend here talk about me behind my back and totally agree with her about everything. (I had to cut my bridesmaids down to 7 so I hardly have none, and I think they are all wonderful friends, I'm just glad I made the right decision about her) She said it was selfish that I didn't plan my New York bridal shower around her 30th birthday party, and that I should have moved it when I realized they coincided. (Never mind that I took her out to an expensive dinner and gave her a $50 gift card to Nordie's to try and make up for it) This is a very summed up version of it all, and I didn't say one mean thing back to her, just finally walked away and started crying. She just genuinely cannot be happy for me and my happiness. I don't think my life is perfect, but I do feel lucky to have a wonderful man, great friends, a roof over my head, and food on the table. So why is this upsetting me so much?

My one friend is really mad that she included her in her thoughts about me, and I know she isn't like that, and she is going to send her an email about it. Not sure on my Cousin yet, I hope she will stand up for me a little. But this person can be very scary to try and disagree with.

My biggest frustration now is that she is intertwined in our group of friends, and while I feel it isn't fair to ask others to get in the middle, I will also be hurt if everyone just pretends like what she said to me was ok - basically just validating (to her anyways) that they agree with her.

My feelings are so hurt, I'm almost 30 years old, getting married in less than 2 months, and am so confused as to how this has happened - I feel like I am in high school! Not sure what to do now, thanks for reading.