Oh, Rachy.
My heartfelt condolences. Sooo sorry to hear of your Mum's passing. It's gutting, and very sad. We are never ready. It feels surreal and there is a lot to process. Many of us here get that, and sympathize greatly.
Wishing you and your family strength through this tough time. Here if you need to chat. Reach out any time. Much love. xo