Big big hugs! Less work means more time for Netflix! If you haven't watched the House of Cards already, I would strongly recommended it, it is wonderful. Are you at all into British period drama? Call the midwife is a lot of fun. I also watched a wonderful documentary lately, the Blackfish. Just lie down on your coach under a big blanket and empty your mind.

Tanya, I am celebrating the halfway mark for you and your fortitude through it. And along with many others around the world, rooting for you through the last longest mile. And waiting to celebrate the day you burst out of the tunnel into the light. I know you will be here soon, that you are just out beyond the bend. And I hope even though the finish line is yet out of sight, you can hear us cheering.

Sorry, double post!

Just wanted to thank everyone for your kind comments.

I am doing kind of meh. Pretty tired, low energy, occasionally dizzy, occasional strange pains etc. Haven't done laundry in 3 weeks now, thank goodness for having a large wardrobe!

Dear Tanya,
I'm very late catching up. My heart goes out to you and I send you all the strength.
I understand how you're feeling low right now and how scary it is because so much is unknown. I also know that you're a wonderful strong lady and you're so courageous and proactive in this very hard and stressful situation. You're stronger than you know, Tanya. I'm glad you are sharing what you're going through because I believe it does help with the healing process. Don't hesitate to lean on YLF for whatever support we can offer you.
I'm thinking about you and sending you healing thoughts and gentle hugs.
xo

Halfway done! Please take gentle care of yourself.

I am so sorry that you are going through this. At least you are halfway done, only 3 weeks to go. Tons of positive thoughts, prayers, and hugs are being sent your way.

So, today was the last day of work for 2013. I have somehow managed to write and submit a conference abstract right before the deadline. I will probably be at home for two months or possibly more.
More of the bad side-effects are kicking in. Among others, loosing my taste pretty rapidly, sweet and salty are already gone. Some things taste bland, some absolutely horrible. My hair started falling off at the area affected by the radiation. My skin now looks like it has a serious sunburn, and it kind of hurts/burns. Feeling quite tired, dizzy and drowsy most of the time. And so on...
Needless to say, I am feeling pretty bummed out. Thank you for allowing me to vent here.

I'm so sorry to hear the symptoms are getting worse, Tanya. I really wish I lived nearby so I could at least give you some company, help with chores, whatever. I guess the best thing at this point is to take it one day at a time, try to get lots of rest, and focus on recovery.

About the taste thing, I've had two different conditions (Bell's Palsy and pine mouth) that have screwed up my sense of taste for a couple of weeks at a time. The Bell's made everything taste really terrible, and pine mouth made everything I ate taste super bitter. In both cases, the only food that tasted somewhat OK was plain white rice with nothing on it (basically, sweet and salty both tasted awful, but for some reason plain rice, which is normally kind of bland, was the only thing that still tasted like it should). So maybe try that?

Tanya,
Do you have someone calling you or stopping by at least every other day? I worry you'll get dehydrated or faint and hurt yourself.

I'm so sorry that food is not much of a comfort right now and the hair loss must be scary. You vent all you want. Shout it out if you need to....we're here for you.

Shout away if it helps Tanya. My SIL a non- Hodgkin s Lymphoma survivor sent me this with the message it was pretty much like this for her.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/hea.....sease.html

Tanya, I am sorry about the side effects. It is so hard. I would recommend that you not think that you still have half way to go, but rather that you just have to get through the day. I know that helped me. Otherwise, it seems too big.

I am thinking of you constantly.

Tanya, as you have already seen, we are with you - if not in person at least in spirit. Ride on our well wishes for those times you can't muster positive yourself. I am thinking of you. Hugs.

Tanya, it will end. Stay as strong as you can. Distract, watch tv, netflix, read.. We are sending you so much love and hugs.

I don't really know what to say Tanya, other than I'm thinking of you and am sorry you are feeling so crummy.

So sorry to hear about your difficulties, Tanya.
If it were possible, everyone on the forum would be there for you instantly.
I'm praying for your healing.
Glad you can come here for encouragement, too.
If you lived near me, I would do your laundry ...
Try to focus your thoughts on good things, not the "what if's" because worry and anxiety will not help you heal.
And I like what Zap suggested -- when negative thoughts come to mind, allow yourself a short amount of time to think on them, since it's not possible to deny what's happening, but then turn that thought process around to better things.
Sending love.

Tanya, I've only started posting in the last few weeks and I don't think we've interacted at all, but I just wanted to say that I'm thinking good thoughts for you and am so sorry you have to go through all of this.

Tanya - you've been in my thoughts today - just wanted to let you know.

Yuck Tanya, that stinks! What a bummer about the radiation symptoms. At least you are through with work now. I hope you can just be okay with feeling meh and it doesn't frustrate you too much. I know it's no fun having only enough energy to do the really necessary things and then none left to do something enjoyable. I hope you won't be too timid to call on a neighbor if you need help fast. I am thinking about you and saying a prayer. Hang in there!

Thinking of you Tanya, and sending you a hug and extra special Thanksgiving wishes!

Thinking of you Tanya. Happy thanksgiving day!