In the past year, I have put on around 10lbs from cutting back on my intensive exercise, stress, eating good food and some level of laziness. In the past two weeks, I've spent way too much time focusing on how miserable this has made me feel and worse of all, how some people are using it to make me feel like crap.

At the start of 2009, I weighed around 8 stone and fluctuated in a range of 6lbs. For my height, this was on the line between underweight and healthy. I probably wasn't eating very well then, often skipping meals to study, eating unhealthy food instead and not eating breakfast. Since then I moved in with Alan who has encouraged me to do much more cooking for myself and my eating habits have became much more centred around 3 healthy meals everyday with some snacks. I also have very little time to exercise lately and have found myself eating junk food from stress. I know that all of this will change in a few weeks time when I finish my masters so at least it can be dealt with then.

However I have developed some more curves than I used to have and have put some weight onto my stomach and hip- not much but enough to make my normal size a bit tight. I know what I need to do to lose the weight but two things happened in the past two weeks that made me feel so miserable about my weight.

One of my friends told me that I look pregnant in front of a group of my friends. We were at a bbq and when I went back for a second serving, he started making more comments about my weight. The worst thing is that he's not exactly the thinnest of people and he also packed on a pile of weight during his masters programme so he should understand what is going on. It was just so upsetting to have someone point out your weight gain, especially when you hope that noone would notice a slight weight gain.

I also went pant shopping today and nearly broke down in H&M from frustration- UK size 8 fitted everywhere else but gave me major muffin top and the size 10 was falling off my hips. Every single pair of pants which I tried on today didn't fit and it was such a horrible experience.

The worst thing is that normally I have such high body confidence and a couple of horrible comments and shopping for trousers is making me feel so unattractive. Ugh...