Today I had a clothing crisis, maybe the third one in the
last two weeks. This one had me so
upset and frustrated that I was trying on everything in my closet and drawers,
just to find an outfit that “worked”.
This despite the fact that I have tons of stuff, and even NEW stuff,
that the moment I put it on and looked in the mirror, I was like- “Who is that
person? This looks terrible on
me! Only a (pick one-grandmother,
loser, slob, idiot) would wear this.
Why did I even buy it? It’s
too late to return it! OMG, I am
so STUPID!!!!”

Normally, I am a very confident dresser, but I am
flummoxed. I was so upset that I
didn’t even get out of the house.
I was just going to pick up my mom, and bring her to this beautiful,
waterfront house that I had tickets to see. The house is an “architectural masterpiece” here in
Sarasota, FL. No one to judge my
style but myself, really. But
after two hours of trying on and hating my clothing, and myself in my clothing,
I just curled up in the couch with a book and some cookies.

Maybe it’s because the weather suddenly turned warm today
for the first time in a long time.
Maybe I’ve been making all the wrong buying decisions, and wasted so
much money. Maybe it’s also
because I got dressed up for a charity cocktail party the other evening, and
was so excited, but my husband didn’t tell me I looked nice. All he had to say later was that maybe
I should have worn a scarf, because my dress was low-cut. Okay, you would have to see the dress
itself, and my wedding dress. Comparatively,
not as low-cut as the wedding dress, but 25 years later… Had I realized how revealing it was, I
wouldn’t have worn it, but that was another crisis in dressing, because the
weather was cold, and I chose it for sleeves, yet had never worn it. So, in my rush, I didn’t think about
that. And I was wearing these
brand new high heels by Prada, which I had bought that very day, as I realized
I had no shoes to match that weren’t agonizing to wear. Btw, the Prada heels were so
comfortable that I didn’t have to sit down once!

So I am posting 2 photos, one from the event with my DH, one
I took the day after, to show the shoes. I also get frustrated that, ever since I had a mastectomy and
reconstruction a few years ago, the “new” fake boobs are too damned high, but
not much I can do, so it affects everything I wear. Guess I really have to go through stuff to make sure I am
not “showing”. The port scar I
have from chemotherapy doesn’t help much either, as it draws the eye…

AAArgh!! I know
I sound like a nut, but this is truly frustrating, and very different for
me. I guess I should be posting
more WIW’s, but I feel so dowdy most of the time, just wearing jeans and
t-shirts. Thanks for letting me
vent!