Oh, WOW. I posted this diatribe of self-pity before bed last night and woke up to all these lovely and comforting messages. Where do I even begin? Thank you to each and every one of you who took time to write something and share your own feelings here, especially when know many of you have things going on in your lives that are far more stressful and serious than closet complaints.
First off, I need to realize I am incredibly lucky to be whining about something as fortunate as "I don't love my body and closet situation". Privilege, anyone? *move along there*
Second, I need to take some proactive steps to change up my outlook. My plan is finding some way to exercise and other outlets for my spare time besides closet churning. Some things that are already in motion: the mini-elliptical, a dance party in the works, and painting. I've also found a friend who can climb at the rock gym on my schedule, and the mini-elliptical will go under my desk at work. Janet, if you're interested it's this one:
https://www.amazon.com/Stamina.....8&
although I got mine locally on Craigslist because Amazon won't ship here.
Third, I need to focus on better eating. DH and I discussed how often we eat out because it seems easier with our hectic lives. But in reality, it's more expensive, unhealthy, and not really a good example to our kiddo. I've come up with a list of meals both my boys will eat (not an easy task!) and am going to start putting more effort into homemade meals. DH does more than his fair share of child care and work around the house already, and cooking is actually something I enjoy when I have the time and am organized enough to do it right. And at work, I need to avoid all the candy and other sweet treats that everyone seems to have around at this time of year.
And last, I do need to face up to purging the closet. I have been slowly getting rid of so-so things that just don't love anymore, but it's harder to do with those "maybe" items of value that I formerly adored, like the Equipment shirts. A holding zone may be the way to go. Can you believe I've never done that? I've always left things hanging around until I can't stand the sight of them.
I do think much of this is age and life stage, and I can't tell you how much your kind words and empathy help. I will do a separate post on what is and isn't working for me now more specifically. Meanwhile, just knowing I have the forum to help me through is a huge relief!