I try not to drop the day to day bad stuff here at YLF. I think the last negative post I've made in this section was in April when my 37 year old friend died from complications of CF and I just didn't know what to do for his partner and children.

Today is my grandmother's (the one who passed away from leukemia in December) birthday. My birthday is tomorrow. I had a dear great aunt who died in January of 2012 who was also a "birthday buddy" having been born September 4th, and my great grandfather who was born September 4th who died in 2000. When I was young we used to have these huge mass birthday parties with all of the family for all four of us. As we all got older we switched to mutual phone calls and cards. Last year I spent the this weekend with my grandmother taking care of her after a chemo treatment.

Unfortunately, every year my SO has to work labor day weekend and my birthday. This year my family isn't getting together because it was to hard on people. I was supposed to spend the weekend with my parents like our regular tradition, but when my mother broached the subject with my father he decided to take our regular trip alone. When she mentioned it was my birthday all he could think of was today being his mom's.

Because of his work schedule and my work schedule the SO and I only really have a possible chance to spent an hour together anyway if we really worked at it, but he has plans with friends to celebrate the end of their long work weekend.

I guess I am just feeling very lonely missing my "birthday buddies" and not having anyone to call or send a card to this year.