Thank you all so much...I cant express how much your kindness and support means to me. I'm so tired of crying, but this made me cry in a good way Suz, he really is my world, my baby...Isabel, yes, he's had a hell of a hard life, in many ways...I got him when he was only 3 weeks old (he was being abused) he's had 3 eye operations, they had to go inside to remove his testicles that never descended, had cancer surgery 3 yrs ago and now it is back He also has been handfed every meal - he's terrified of plates (I think from being force-fed when he was too little- before I got him. A, so sorry to hear you lost your dog. Alaskagirl, B will be 12 yrs old May 17th if he makes that far.... most Shar Pei live 8-10 yrs....give Kona a hug from me. Rae, they really are our kids, for sure. Joy, give Mags a hug from me too...and a light 'spank' for your jeans, lol B loves that- he really leans into it. JJ, give Penny a hug too! This really is a 'sisterhood' isn't it? I'm so honored to be part of it...TS, Angie, Lyn D, yes, every minute with him is precious to me and I need to concentrate on the present and not what his terrible future holds...Alicat, Inge, Bj111, Caro, Debora, Louise, Laurinda, Deb...you are all so kind to comment