I know this is an older thread, but I wanted to offer my sympathies, as someone who has also struggled with anxiety for most of my life. I also feel like certain traumas have made it worse for me over the years, even when I feel like I am now at an age where I should be managing it better. For me, it is usually triggered or intensified by unpredictability and chaotic situations, so I find I am kind of spiraling lately as we are in the middle of renovations and I’ve been away from home and my routines and safe space for so long, feeling like there is no end in sight, and very much a sense of uncertainty.
I hope you are in a better place at the moment, I can very much understand how those events would be triggering. I could never get comfortable in traffic, and also don’t have a driver’s license.
Anyway, I am also thankful for this place being a safe space to vent, and for providing a nice escape for me when I need to get my mind off difficult things.