Bella, I'm sorry to hear this sad news.
Twelve years ago I lost my first baby at the end of the first trimester, so believe me, I honestly know how it hurts and how intense your grief can be.
Please PM me if you need support, even if it is a month or two on from now. (Personally for me, some of the toughest times were in the weeks after I lost the baby when it felt like everyone had forgotten my grief and that "I should be over it by now".)
x