First, let me tell you that the dress is beautiful. I love everything about it, but especially the print.
Second, you are not alone in how you are feeling. My friends and I are starting our 16th week of social distancing (aka lockdown). Our emotions are all over the board. There are days when we feel good and hopeful. Those days are unfortunately followed by days of anxiety and hopelessness.
I am afraid I can offer no advice because it would ring hollow. It is important to know that all of your emotions are real and valid. Best wishes.