Hello lovely ladies.
I entered 2020 with a cancer diagnosis that took the legs out from under me. I struggled this exact week last year on how to tell my children, worried and anxious. Endless tests and procedures brought surgery in January. Chemotherapy followed and it was very rough. I had a life threatening allergic reaction to one of the drugs. Then radiation. I careened into a depression that was unrelenting.


Yesterday I had my oncology follow up and news that no further follow up is required for 5 months. I got back in my car and wept. Wept from stress, from the idea that I will have 5 months of no interventions. But also for the people I saw in the wait room, alone, that have a cancer journey in front of them. And they will do those treatments alone as I did. My heart! Cancer during covid is especially difficult.

Onward. I made it through! I get to start 2021 free of the worries that I started 2020 with. And some smaller things - I kept most of my hair - it is thin but I have some. I have donated 80% of my clothing because it holds traumatic association for me. That means I will build a new wardrobe from scratch. That is exciting. I hold hope for a vaccine that will allow me to see family.


I can breathe again. It is time to rebuild.

Thanks to all of you here. I’ve kept up here and there and it’s been a lovely diversion. And thanks to those who reached out to me - very generous and appreciated. Have a wonderful holiday season.



4 years ago