Marilyn - thanks for the tip - I'll look into that ! I'm in my nearest Indigo a couple of times a week !
Angie - thanks for the kind and thoughtful words. What I show in pictures doesn't really reflect what my body looks like underneath I want to be able to wear a bathing suit, shorts, tanks, workout clothes with confidence, not embarrassment . It's truly not a #/size thing. The one upside of extra weight is that my face is not as drawn looking as can happen to women as they age and maintain a thin body. You know the saying : your face or your ...... And with regards to premium jeans - I have a pair of CE Stilettos in a 28 - they seem to be a pretty generous fit - and i can still get into them, albeit not as comfortably. But yesterday, I tried the same jean on in a different wash and even a 30 wasn't working. I did notice that the store still had a ton of small sizes left in the premium jeans (there was a big selection of them on sale ) but all of the larger sizes were getting picked over, which leads one to believe that that accurate sizing is indeed a problem. Anyways - I wouldn't have cared what size they were if they had actually fit comfortably. GAP GF ones do, and they were 1/4 of the price, again .
andib and diane - funny the pants are sold out on-line. Our local store had a ton of them. And re; thyroid issues, yes, I've been obsessed with that but my levels are just fine, according to my dr. I admit i was a little disappointed in hearing that as I was hoping for a clear reason I could focus on and deal with. I'm so glad you got your situation sorted out - i have a good friend with Hashimoto's too and she has to be very vigilant about food and liquid calories .
suz- yep, you're right about having a really wacky year. I have been in denial about this - and completely underestimating the effect of getting together with my 3 best ff's (one at a time- lol) , drinking wine , and having a bite to eat. Do that once or even twice a week for many months - and no wonder this happened. I was so happy to be connecting with friends though that I was ignoring the effect it was having on my body and health. I lay awake for many hours last night thinking about this - and it comes down to not treating my body with respect. And something Vivian said in another post about us living in a culture of alcohol (i'm paraphrasing ) really stuck with me. Everything socially that we do is built around it - and looking at it with clear eyes, it's not a healthy thing. I am an all or nothing type - and moderation has never been the answer. Perhaps one day when I have myself back on track, I'll investigate how having a glass now and then works for me, but until then - I'm trying to treat myself/body with the respect it needs at this age. I know what you're dealing with too - and I'm always on the other end of an email..as you know