I'ts kinda funny, how our addictions can manifest themselves in crazy, unrelated ways. While I have known the triggers for my drugs of choice, the same illness wants to prevent the acknowledgement when it manifests itself elsewhere. Willful blindness in order to maintain itself to the detriment of its host, perhaps?

Time to deploy the treatment of stinkin' thinkin' in new directions. VenusCow, thank you for that perspective. That really made it a bit more stark as to how I need to approach it.