BJ, thank you. It was hard letting go, but for my sponsor it was so much easier
Fashintern, I really don't know that I'd enjoy writing for a living. I'd feel all this pressure to come up with stuff, and all the pressure to make the next piece I write be as funny as the last piece I wrote... I write for therapy, I write for laughs, I write to share myself. Feeling like I "had" to write would make it less therapeutic, less laughable, less like voluntary sharing and more like an obligation. However, Joy might be on to something. I could do a compilation without feeling the pressure, or submit pieces I've already written for publishing. Maybe. If I work up the courage.
Taylor, my sponsor has kids, so when she got sober and built a life for them, there wasn't room in the budget for luxuries for herself. She's in a better position now, but the kids still come first (which is fine). So yeah, itIt felt good to give her something she couldn't or wouldn't give herself, because she deserves it so much.
Angie, yes yes and more yes! I really just can't find it in me to deal with discomfort in the name of looking good, not anymore. Like, I'm too old and I've been through too much to deal with unnecessary horse puckey, and sore feet is/are unnecessary horse puckey. Thank you for all the recommendations and advice, because it definitely helped so very much!