Una, I am so sorry for the stress you're experiencing.
I have been incredibly stressed about professional issues as well, and the anxiety can lead into a train of thought where I *know* I'm not thinking rationally.
My dear mom reminds me every day to take it one step at a time. I can't tackle the whole problem at once; I just need to find a small place to start and work at that for a while. Some days that's enough to help. Other days, I just try to believe it as I struggle NOT to panic.
Anyway, while your situation is different from mine, I really do feel what you're going through, and I wish that I could simply wish it away for you.
