I am doing better. A serendipitous sequence of events: My Guru coming to town and me being able to attend his discourse on one of the texts, his meeting personally with hubby and I and giving us some direction to better our married life.He talked to me about putting a $$ limit/month on shopping and to try and stick to it. Reminding me that at this stage in my life my duty is to my family: especially to bebe.

Then....I had taken spring break off, we visited CA, my BFF pampered me.I met the fabbers and their beauty inner and external floored and humbled me.

I found a life coach whose area of expertise is with women in healing professions that are at a crossroads. So with the help of my Guru ( he is by no means an evangelical sort of person but is a teacher: simplifying the Hindu texts for us and making us ask hard questions of ourselves), new coach, my psychiatrist and yes: bollywood dance and yoga: I have a plan.

My main issue becomes stopping my practices when I feel better. That is why I feel the coaching will help me develop daily rituals and routines as well as help reframe issues at work and home.

Thank you all for all your help, words of advice and support. I do feel loved. And saying that is a huge deal for me because feeling unworthy of love has been a constant in my depression struggle.

Oh yes...and the fashion and style therapy: onwards and upwards: here is to Spring wiw's!