So I really want to pour my heart out to a good girlfriend over a couple bottles of wine. But I just release it into the atmosphere here. My friend whom I thought was my friend is no longer my friend. I have written about her several times on my blog and here on YLF. Well all things have seasons and seasons change. I am not hurt I am more disappointed the way that things happened.

I'll try to make a long story short. Meosha, my friend Tem and I and Tem's cousion Angie always have hung together very tightly over the past 4 months. Dynamics started to shift and Tem and I decided to move forward as a couple. Meosha for some reason decided to write a diatribe about me and Tem it was pretty bad. Eloquent but bad and about the both of us. I have been trying to reach out to Meosha for the past couple of weeks. We talk everyday or every other day. It started before the 4th of july weekend. I am sad to say I have only spoken to her once and that was a stilted conversation.

I am going to include what she wrote on FB and then sent to me on a FB page we belong to. I've been dealing with the blow black and trying to find a way clear that is why I have not been posting. Well thank you for listening.

When something is weighing on my soul, I release it to the pen, so hear me:

Queens and Pawns...

It is incredibly sad to see a woman, a fellow Queen, allowing herself
to be "dogged out" by a man just because you are lonely. Him giving you
attention does not mean he cares for your spiritual well-being...sexual
acts does not mean he cares for your physical well-being...you spending
money on him does not mean he cares for your financial well-being...I
sit back and watch this madness in
disgust and awe from my Queendom. This woman has a situationship and not
a relationship. While You are focus on him, your Queendom crumbles. You
can not be a Queen while relinquishing your crown...all for an
imagined affair and you going down. I watch and wait in the hopes
reality sets in but each time she falls deeper into the nightmare
because this was not her dream. I no longer smile because a Queen has
fallen to the tyranny of a KINGdom. Dumb because she thinks my lack of
smiles is due to jealousy. Jealous that she won??? but I can not find
her prize...When parts of him are in between your thighs, he gives you
nothing and takes everything you gave away...No former Queen, your reign
is over...this is not jealously but sadness for royalty lost. You were
so busy trying to compete with my Queendom, that you missed the snake in
the grass. The enemy infiltrated your walls as you lowered your guards
and opened your legs. You sat at his table and knowingly took a bite of
his poison apple and your womb was destroyed. NO.LIFE.GIVEN...you are
now barren...you produce no seeds...so what was the fruit of this labor?
You are still lonely, you are still wanting, you are still
confused...just now without a crown. But this is your journey to happily
ever after...so as I silently retreat to my Queendom, I found the crown
you threw away...buried in dirt and dust to my dismay. At your grave I
mourned the Queen you were. I stepped off my high horse and fell to my
knees. Touching the cold ground, I dug up your crown and cleaned it with
my tears. Restoring it to its former glisten, shine and glory.
Carefully preserving it until you are ready to rewrite your story...‪#‎queenthings‬

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