last week I wrote about being struck with hives. They're still here! At the end of the week it looked like they were almost completely gone, so I was much happier, but now they've come back, though not as bad as it was during the peak of Tuesday/Wednesday last week. In addition to the hives themselves, my body isn't too fond of the antihistamines--they make me tired and jittery and so I'm tired of taking them too. But whenever I try to cut back, the hives keep coming back.

The other reason I am feeling sad is that I went on a date on Sunday evening that I thought went really well--it was for coffee, but we ended up talking for over 2 hours, and the conversation was really flowing since we have a number of interests in common and similar cultural backgrounds (and more importantly, similar reactions to said cultural background). I really liked him and was hoping that we'd at least have a 2nd date and see where things go from there. But at the end of that date, he never said anything about wanting to hang out again and I haven't heard from him since.

I know it hasn't been a long time, and he could still yet get in touch with me (and of course, I'm mulling the option of getting in touch with him), but I'm feeling sad for myself in the "nothing ever works out for me" kind of mode. And to be fair, while I'm not shy, I'm reserved and don't give out many flirtatious signals while on a first date, though I have no reservations when it comes to expressing opinions or talking in general. So it's possible that he thinks I'm less interested than I actually am, or that that partially turned off his interest in general...which makes the whole thing more depressing.

I'm mostly wallowing in this because of the antihistamines, but I'm a little frustrated in myself that I'm so sad about it at all. I shouldn't get hung up on one date! But it did seem really promising...

I probably will just force the issue and message him later to see if he'd be interested in meeting up again, though I'm fairly pessimistic about the outcome, even though during the date he seemed attentive/interested.